I Recognized that Look

If this blog was a Victorian novel, I as the author would take the reader aside to tell them something that is pivotal to the plot. Here it goes: “Gentle reader, if you haven’t already figured it out, you are about to find out that the author has serious flaws. She is not a perfect Godly woman. While she attempts to handle the big stuff with faith and courage, the small stuff gets her every time.”
In all honesty, there are a few brothers and sisters of the Lord that I hope to never really see again this side of Heaven. God feels a little differently. I get to see a few almost on a weekly basis.
As I mentioned in an earlier post, Micah was born on April 9th. On April 1st, he played an April’s Fool joke on me. I had contractions all day and was miserable. During service that morning, the contractions were bad. I left service during prayer time and on my way out to the foyer my eye caught the eye of someone who fits in the above mentioned category.
I was not feeling my best physically. I did not feel beautiful. I could barely walk. I in no way had my game face on. She looked at my belly and then looked at me. At that moment, I saw her heart as God sees her. I was in pain because of the contractions, but she was in pain because her womb was empty. I recognized that look.
When I look back, that encounter was pivotal to starting this ministry. God showed me pain in others. A pain I understood, had endured and still feel. I don’t have years of spiritual insight into infertility, miscarriage or the loss of a child. I don’t have many answers and am still looking for a few. I am simply trying to be obedient to God and take a step of faith in this ministry. So gentle reader, the posts are now live. Keep in mind this author is flawed and falls short of the sight of God on a daily basis. I pray that God will open my eyes and open my heart so that when eyes meet, I will continue to recognize that look.